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S. A. J. Lyttek, a multiple award-winning writer, always loved writing, but didn’t arrive at the profession in the typical manner. After college and graduate school, she plunged into government consulting. In this environment, she discovered a knack for writing tests, interviews and other measurements. That soon became the focus of her career—reigniting her love for the written word. Thus captivated, she spent evenings freelancing “fun” writing including short stories, poems, articles and cards. When her eldest was a toddler, she quit full-time work to stay home and write. Eager to spend more time with her children, homeschooling intrigued her. From preschool through high school, she homeschooled both sons while continuing to freelance. An integral part of the homeschooling community, she has developed and taught writing classes to a generation of homeschoolers. Married to her childhood sweetheart, Gary, Mrs. Lyttek loves to share her commitment to homeschoolers and her fascination with the written word.

The Disconnect Between Emotions and Reality

5/12/2021 12:23:00 PM BY Susan Lyttek

This week has had a lot of ups and downs. The downs, while not all unexpected, have been hard to fight against when you add in the current world environment plus sleep difficulties. But it needn’t be that way.

At least not completely.

Jesus tells us that in this world we will always have trials. But he also says, “take heart; I have overcome the world!”

Today I read (because today is the 12th and it’s in the Proverbs chapter of the day) Proverbs 12:25, “Worry weighs a person down; an encouraging word cheers a person up.” Sometimes, it seems like a lot more than worry weighs us down. How do we take heart in the rollercoaster of life? (And I mean rollercoaster in the not-fun way when someone drags you onto a ride outside of your comfort zone!)

Today, is my sister Deb’s birthday, that is a good thing. It reminds me of many of our adventures and misadventures as sisters. Like many sisters, we caused each other grief and joy in fairly equal amounts. We are very different people in personality, motivations and interests. Because of that, though, I have been able to learn from her and grow. I hope she can say the same about me.

I watched a horrible movie this week that had great reviews and I wish it had been unseen. I read a great book that initially was difficult, so completing it felt like an accomplishment.

Sunday was Mother’s Day. I tell my guys that their birthdays are much more of a mother’s day than the engineered holiday. Never liked its observance. But now, it adds in the layer of melancholy every year as a reminder that my mom is no longer on this earth. I cling to the belief and the hope that I will see her again one day. In the meantime, I enjoy spoiling my other mom (aka Gary’s mom) and reminding her that she is important. So a down and an up.

Monday, we went to the viewing of a dear friend. He was always the first to smile when we walked into church and followed that up by a big hug. I hadn’t seen him in over a year because of all the stuff that 2020 brought us. Seeing his still form without a smile was such a disconnect from his reality—as was seeing his dear widow without him.

Today’s email brought both an acceptance for a story and a rejection for another.

My day’s schedule includes a talk with my dad which is one of my special moments in the week. But it also includes an overdue dentist visit that I’m dreading.

Because of all this, and more that I won’t or can’t put into words, my emotions have been all over the board.  Sometimes they fit the circumstances. Often, they don’t. I can have a dream that colors my entire day for good or bad. I can find myself longing for something horrid or avoiding something lovely.

The trick, and I haven’t mastered it yet, is to live in the honesty of God’s word rather than the volatility of emotions. He says in Jeremiah 29:11: For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil, to give you a future and a hope. And in Hebrews 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

In these and others, God reminds us that hope is not an emotion. Faith is not volatile. Both are built on him, on what he has done and the promises he makes. In other words, hope is built on truth rather than transitive feelings.

In my poems, I can see that. In the day to day, not always. The day to day remains a rollercoaster until I get my eyes off of me and onto him.

How can I serve you today, Jesus? Show me and pull me off of the coaster and into reality.